went out for a jog just now...
ppl were starin at me..
realised my eyes were alreadi puffy red..
眼泪和汗水已经混合在一起,
我也分不清楚...

那心痛的感觉我很熟悉..

pre-dad,
u needed me,
tot i was always there to support you,
but somehow,
everytime u nid me,
i m wasn't there...

post-dad, i duno if i m still needed by u..
anytime i heard ur doin great at work,
i m so proud of u,
i realli m...

but me..
my head is realli heavy...
my sch work's real mess..
i duno wat i m doin..
i m so stressed out..

i realli duno...

the stress, the mess
have taken a toll on me..

perhaps tt's y i m so bad tempered..
nuthin i m doin seems to b rite..

i have alreadi prepared alot of things to b sent to u...
but somehow,
things juz kept cropped up..

i duno whether u still wan them,
我没脸 to send the stuff to u...
even the presents i prepared keep havin prob..
and it just coupled with sch work deadline..

i dun nid 千言万语,
i nid u.. u placin ur hands on me is all i ever nid..

i m realli sori i din say the words u needed to hear,
to be there when u nid me..

all u get was my shouting..

i m realli sori..

i din meant it...

perhaps u'l tink there are juz excuses..
perhaps they are excuses for myself..

i dun dare to ask fr u anything..

but i realli nid u...

'i love you' would hurt you,
i dun even noe whether to say it anot..
but i realli do..
i realli do..