i nv thought of u leaving me b4,
but being a buddy he is,
he had to be brutally honest,
he had to remind me the worst,
to paint me a picture of u leaving,
leaving me all broken again
when i believe it was alright for me to give every bit..

n i freaked out,
because it nv cross my mind til now..

i got scared,
i got tensed up,
i got paranoid..

i beg ur pardon for me to be paranoid and scared
because he brought me back to the days
where i cried myself to slp every single f**king night
onli to wake up with sore eyes
and dreading dawn break,
where i could stay awake thru out the night,
staring at the ceiling,
wif tears just flowing non - stop down my cheeks,
onli to live like a zombie
and repeat the same vicious cycles
night in, night out..


it was the most terrible feeling i ever felt,
i got none to rely on but myself..
til i met u..

but perhaps,
i've always been looking out for my friends,
always putting other ppl above myself..
that i rather suffer myself in silence,
letting ppl step on me,
always making things ez for others..

i m low in self - confidence,
mayb u've seen it,
mayb u din..

i m nt gd in askin for help,
but wif you,
u made me feel special,
feel safe,
sth i nv felt b4,
n i dun wan it to go away..
u build me up,
u lifted me up,
to smile the way i love abt myself,
to smile the way u love abt me..

i duno it was alrite for me to selfish,
to b selfish to keep someone i love by my side,
to be selfish because i wana be happy myself,
to always keep u by side,
for i want you to be happy..
to be happy being wif me,
to nt feel hurt being wif me,
to feel my love and touch..
because i'm onli happy being wif u..

i nv wana let u go,
i wana b selfish,
i dun wana ur love to be shared
coz my love is onli for you,
nv meant to b shared..

i nv tot ur the ger to break me up..

it's just that i nid assurance at times too..

it's just not fair,

i just gotten used to falling aslp
wif ur warmth,
wif my hand in urs,
wif a smile in my face,
wif u waking up in my embrace..

den we gotta separate,
n i just gotten used to
us being 6000plus km apart,
to hearin ur voice on the fone,
to seein u on webcam
b4 falling aslp..

and the best thing that could happen to me
is when u came back..
i was just getting used to u
being back in my arms..
that ur back by side,

onli to leave again...

n i nid time to get used to us
being apart once again..

so i beg ur understanding,
it wasn't ez to feel such ups and downs,
coz i'm caught in btwn,
i wana be naive and wana beg u nt to go,
but at the same time,
i know u'l still have to go
n us back to being apart
when things r starting to look up..

i'm onli dying to
hear u laugh,
see u smile,
feel ur warmth,
to love u for who ur,
to tell me everything will be okie,
for i'm afraid at times too..

superman nid a shoulder to rest on,
arms to cry in too,
arms to catch him whenever he falls..

n he's gg to trouble u for being there for him,
because there is none he wana turn to..