Trust, or the lack thereof

seriously, how important is trust in relationship? does it affects how one view every single word said or actions done? the lack of trust seems to have an adverse effect on how the words sound and the things being done, it's seems like there is a layer of water in between... everything comes out funny.... funny is how I would describe myself.... funny that I always stressed that trust is of utmost importance to my friends when they questioned about my LDR.. funny that I always reassure myself that all I need to have is trust to make the relationship work.. funny that how do I determine whether the relationship is working when all I am feeling is the diminishing of physical distance and the ever increasing emotional distance.. funny that I wonder if the emotional distance will reach the distance when we were strangers to begin with.. funny is how I would describe the current emotional state I am feeling.. funny is how I would feel of what was being accomplished over the 2 years apart.. funny that I thought it would be a more solid relationship.. funny is that it became a flimsy wall of straws.. funny is I no longer see, hear, feel everything without some form of medium.. everything comes out funny... funny that everything comes out funny.. funny..