this is it.. my last day in the states..

alot of questions answered, but even more questions arise..

i came here and i overcame what i've feared but going back with new fears..

i realized something cannot be forced especially feelings and relationships..

i realized just how sweet and touching my new friends are when we lived, stayed and worked together..

two months, it changed my views on relationships, what can be given up and what you must fight to hold on for your dear life..

reunions and goodbyes, they are part and parcel of life..

if given a choice, i would always want to send people off cause i am not strong enough to not cry if i'm being sent off..

i would rather people remember my smile when they leave..

the memories of me might fade, my name might be forgetten,
but i hope i left my smile in you guys' hearts which would carry you through good and bad times..

thank you states for this chance to open my eyes, mind and heart to this small small world!